I really feel guilty about that, do you believe it's possible to be "atoned"?

I understand completely where you are coming from. (actually im supposed to working on a speech for class >.<) But any ways you have to be able to force yourself to sit and study/work. Take away any distractions. (for me this laptop and my xbox) I believe we all go through these phases but stay strong. As for changing majors that is completely normal i changed my major after i finish my degree. 3 years for a career i wont use but its knowledge non the less. Its up to you to judge your parents and how they will take it, but i would tell them because it may help you do better next semester. Hope this helps and don't worry life always has a way to work it's self out i'm sure you'll figure it out. ^_^